literally just an unedited ramble
my head is for some reason stuffed with weird things that messes up my brain and does not make me focus on one thing, but the things don't really have content, like that feeling after doomscrolling too much. i have to study math, yesterday i decided to run for school vice president but idk if i will actually be able to find the 8th graders and i don't even know what i should prepare, like obviously i should be planning wait should i even be making anything? do i even wanna run for school vice president? fuck it should i quit? i mean i have barely started, yeah this thing is messng me up i should really study math but my heaed is stuffed. my bro is sitting next to me singing and my parents are cooking dinner, i thnk about how when i finally start focusing on somethiing i will be distracted by having to eat dinner, but i don't focus that much anyways, so the logical conclusion would be to shut up and focus, ughhh where do i even start studying math. should i write that one storyu in toki pona? idk taht doesn't feel very productive, i mean when i try to do something it is 1. actually beneficial 2. totally useless and clogged my brain from doing something beneficial and idk which one writing a toki pona story is. meow meow meow my brain is weird. i mean the toki pona story is one of my projects so should i do it? yeah ig i'm gonna wrok on that. wow why am i writing this frustrated ramble, of all the text editors i have, on bearblog? am i going to post this on bearblog? wow i wonder how many blog posts have been abandoned recently. today i was gonna do that 40 questions thing i saw from ava, i thought i would not be able to finish it therefore i want to split it into 20, but i've barely done 10. maybe i shoudl do that first? but i don't feel like writing a blog post, oh wat i just had dinner and now i feel like writing a blog post. will i add to this ramble later or will i feel better to do something else. oh wait should i read a linguistics textbook? now i wanna do a bunch of stuff, and my head will be restuffed with ppossibilities that i dont wanna actually do. yeah imma complete those 20 questions and go back to math. and for the president thing? according to my current mood i'd rather run for class president, i don't really feel like doing school vice president and that only stresses me out rn. but maybe friday me will feel different, although i don't think you don't decide those stuff based on your mood. i have no idea. i finish my rambles here.