reëvaluating my math study goals
very random note: i am disappointed that nasin nanpa Tuwan never got any attention more than one comment on reddit. it was a revolutionary idea lol
today i had my first club meeting, there were supposed to be 6 of us here so i made my mom pay for a six-person room. and then two people said they couldn't come on the day of the meeting, one person said that they would come yesterday but didn't answer any of my calls today, so that's three people including me who came. and one person was 30 minutes late because they got lost, and the other person was 43 minutes late because they didn't know today was the club meeting. i had to search for hours to find a place that was open on sunday that had six-person rooms and there were three people lol. four-person rooms are way easier to find btw. but since we all came and enjoyed the time, i was chill and decided it was absolutely worth the time.
but then my mom noticed1 the meeting was sorta a mess, and she said 'wow ava, wouldn't this have been a better time if you went to a math hagwon instead?' and that stressed me out while i was doing my homework.
so, why was i stressed? well it's because i internally know that my math studies are not going that good but am in denial. and how do i get unstressed? there are two ways:
- make my math studies better
- undermine the importance of studying math
i hope i get to option 1 and not option 2, but how do i know when i'm unstressed about studying math whether it's option 1 or option 2? that goes to the question, how do i know when my math studies are going well? and that is a problem that has given me a headache multiple times, but to put it simply something is going well when it reaches its goals.
and what are my goals for studying math?
- get a good score on tests. in the short term that's middle school tests, but more importantly in the long term that's high school tests.
- have fun. well that wording was partly true but partly misleading, so i'll say it again: be inquisitive. and the impact of being inquisitive about math is a) i can have motivation for studying, b) i can study more because i have motivation for studying, c) i can learn new things by myself which again motivates me and makes me look good in high school and uni applications.
and what am i going to do to achieve those goals?
- review middle school math (for the concepts themselves, sorta done with algebra2 and just starting geometry)
- just sorta explore things, except not just by blindly reading memes. i have a list of math things i want to learn about.
i am going to add some extra notes on my friend's math club tomorrow, but i'll just publish it this way today cuz i have to recharge by going unconscious for 7½ hours.
the funniest part is how she noticed it, she "noticed" it at first because she couldn't track my location (which is funny because i deleted the tracking app a few days after my birthday, i'm 14 and i'm legally allowed to ;D) and she asked me if i actually used all my time at the room my mom rented.↩
이걸 쓰다 보니 이차방정식 근의 공식 증명을 까먹음을 알게 되었다. 그래 sorta done with algebra, 이차방정식 근의 공식 증명 빼고. i am not going to look what that is in english for now, but 이차방정식의 근의 공식 seems to be quadratic formula... i hope. does 'quadratic formula' mean ?↩